I know a man who had a very bad and sour outlook on life and on other people.
He unconsciously and consciously looked for the “bad” in others. He seemed to look for opportunities to criticize people and belittle them. He found a sort of evil delight in making others look “small” and “unworthy”, so that he could make himself look better by comparison.
He had a long list of people who he self-righteously “judged”, seeing them as incompetent, arrogant, conceited or just plain stupid.
Then one day, seemingly “out of the blue”, he became very ill. He experienced such a violent pain in his upper stomach that he could barely stand up or even breathe.
Despite the fact he criticized and judged others, the man was a Christian Scientist—at least he was a Christian Scientist in his own mind. And it was his custom to rely on God for help and physical healing.
While in great pain, he called a Christian Science practitioner* to pray for him.
The practitioner was warm and loving and began to pray for him immediately. And in a very short while, the pain was completely gone. And all seemed well again.
Yet, in a few weeks, the pain returned. But this time it was an even more severe pain than he experienced the first time.
Again, he called the Christian Science practitioner for help. Again she prayed for him. And like before, the pain lifted after a few minutes. And like before, all seemed well.
Several months passed without incident. Then one day, the pain in his upper stomach returned once again. But this time, the pain was so violent and intense the man began to bleed from his mouth. And he felt he was going to die. While laying helpless on the floor, he asked his wife to call the same practitioner for more prayer. Which she did.
In a few minutes, the man’s wife returned with a message from the practitioner. His wife said, “The practitioner said you are to forgive all those people you are judging!”
Without questioning her request, the man immediately knew in himself what the practitioner was referring to. He knew that he had to forgive everyone on his list of people he was criticizing, and he knew they had to be forgiven…now.
And that’s what he did.
Laying on the floor, the man knew he had to “love thy neighbor as thyself”, as Jesus said to do in the Bible. He began to mentally review all the people on his list. As he thought of someone, he forgave them and saw them with love. And he forgive himself for judging people too.
He asked God, from the depth of his heart, to cleanse his heart of every dark, critical thought. Then he replaced the criticism he held of others with a deeper more spiritual love for each.
By the time the man got to the end of his list, he felt relieved and spiritually satisfied by what he had done; and his stomach pain completely vanished. And it never returned. Why? Because the man’s bad disposition and his stomach pain were really one and the same. By letting God fill his heart with love, the man’s heart was washed clean, and in its place, he experienced the most glorious feeling of joy and peace he had ever known.
I know the pain never returned, because I am that man.
Now you may ask, how did the practitioner know I needed to “forgive” others? How did she “see” into my heart?
The answer is simple: she prayed and God, (who knew my heart), gave her the answer she needed to tell me.
Yes, God can change your disposition—and your health. All it takes is the desire to let God transform your heart.
* A Christian Science practitioner gives their full time to praying for others, helping them quickly find God’s solutions to health, financial, relationship, and other life problems.